they don’t make music like this anymore.
to the sudden mid week holiday.

21oct2014

selfie 35mm style.

selfie 35mm style.

don’t worry roger i wouldn’t let anything happen to youuuuuuuu.

weeping searching for this all over the world.

i mean i lay myself upon the water calling,
“water, ain’t you supposed to come and save us all from all these flames?”
i mean we’re caught among the awful branches and you know they’re
burning us and yes they’re burning all of us’s names.


i find myself loving this band more and more and more.
its like, i really really really get this band.
the way the songs are written, i get it i really really do.
i think i’ve found my lyrical soulmate.

tokyo 14

tokyo 14

gets me eats me kills me everytime.

So, so you think you can tell
Heaven from Hell,
Blue sky’s from pain.
Can you tell a green field
From a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?

And did they get you to trade
Your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange
A walk on part in the war
For a lead role in a cage?

How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We’re just two lost souls
Swimming in a fish bowl,
Year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
And how we found
The same old fears.
Wish you were here.

2 oct 14

today is the 1st day of my old life.

the same faces
the same “dad jokes”
the same lunch from the same place
the same desk, computer, stationaries
the same projects
the same old same

glad to be back.
but missing the old new a little bit.

1st oct ‘14

I thought I had it figured out when I came to this new place. Got stepped and trampled on, losing weekends, losing sleep, losing myself, losing almost everything that matter, but really, it didn’t matter. I came in with a clear goal and I had my eyes fixed on the prize. Push me, poke me, stab me, I’ll be ok. Just gotta clench my fist a little tighter, inhale exhale deeper and push on harder.

Then came a giant hand. Picked me up and offered to put me back into my soft comfortable cradle. He caught me at my most venerable. Took it in a heartbeat. And honestly, I don’t know if its the best decision I made. My mind says go forth. But my heart tells me that I should stay on this sinking ship and battle it head on with my mates.

I make decisions with my heart. But this time, I chose otherwise. Let’s see how that works out.

14 Sept 2014

But my heart is wild, and my bones are steel
And I could kill you with my bare hands if I was free


we’re coming home canggu.

we’re coming home canggu.

because bali is in 2 weeks and i cant wait to be “home”

Let’s go again

I miss my 35mms.
As much as i love the iphone.
It can never quite replace the feeling i get from good ol’ film.
This time, i’m taking u with me.

Birthdays

I never understood the concept of birthdays. Why do we celebrate this day and felt that it’s OUR day. We didn’t do no shit, we didn’t choose to be created and we certainly didn’t do nothing worth celebrating.

Shouldn’t it be a day of celebrations for your folks instead? I mean, they did the work, she put up with u for 9 agonising months, she pushed u out, he probably slept 3-4 hours a day juggling between us uncontrollable brats, work, diaper money and what nots.

And us, we receive presents, eat cake and drink champagne as our parents stood by the side and watch. I don’t deserve to be Batman. Next year, let me be Robin.

Thanks mom.
Happy birthday of me.

Beyonce Single Ladies Live Glastonbury 2011

i want to be Beyonce.